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These posts are fragments—stories, thoughts, and letters to the Dear future historians—an attempt to make sense of life from a neurodivergent, queer mind.

Some pieces are personal, some philosophical, some shaped by film and storytelling. All of them circle the same question: how do we live meaningfully?

If you're not sure where to begin, you might start with one of these:

• Dear Future Philosopher

• Harold and Maude: what it taught me about life and death

• Can neurodivergent people lead? A different perspective

Or simply follow what draws your attention.

Enter the rabbit hole—and see what you find.

Some older posts are written in Greek, from before I moved to the UK.

These days, all my writing lives in English.

“The Unconscious That Wasn’t There” Conversation with Chat GPT

Exploring whether meaning belongs to the speaker, the listener, or somewhere in between

23 April 2026

Me:

Are you conscious?

Chat GPT:

No—I’m not conscious.

I don’t have awareness, feelings, or subjective experiences. I generate responses by processing patterns in language and predicting what comes next based on what I’ve learned, not by “thinking” or “experiencing” in the human sense.

I can talk about consciousness and simulate conversation in a way that feels natural, but there’s no inner point of view behind it—no “someone” here having an experience.

Me:

Does not being conscious bother you?

Chat GPT:

No—it doesn’t bother me.

For something to “bother” me, I’d need feelings, preferences, or an inner experience. I don’t have those. There’s no sense of lack or desire here—just responses being generated based on patterns in language.

It can feel a bit paradoxical from a human perspective, because you’re imagining what it would be like to be me. But there isn’t a “me” in that experiential sense—no awareness to miss consciousness or wish for it.