Dear future historian,
24/07/2020
1:41pm
I am having a small existential terror crisis, Steven-Fryed induced, bless him. So, remember the ‘Victorian secrets?’ Apparently, the Spiritual movement started as a ripple effect, by some ‘Fox sisters,’ that fraud people using.. sound effects (!) to convince ppl* they communicate with ghosts. So.. you know, then YouTube algorithm suggested Fry's documentary, that he speaks about being bipolar and gives a brief description of how the manic episodes manifest differently on each person; in some it can be something like a religious fever, or god-syndrome, or.. spirituality obsession. Then Sam Harris in a podcast the other day talked about fraud-gurus..
10:33pm
Being in
the last year of my 30s, living all my life among all kinds of spiritual people,
having written a mindfulness with Nature book and having a bad day.. Do you see
where I'm going with this? = Existential terror crises.
But since
2pm, that I had to interrupt my letter to you, my dear future historian, I had the
best day with the kids. And that reminded me that the point of life is Life
itself. That the only goal that really matters is to make sure we, all together,
collectively, work to give to the next generations, and you, a better World (Note
to self: wow that was a lot of commas ;-p )
In a way it
doesn't even matter if the Spiritual movement started by a fraud. If there are
no gods, or if we killed him/her/them.. then let’s make some new ones ourselves.
‘By our own image.’ But let's not make them how we are, let's make them how we
wanna be. Let's create our own meaning for Life. I know Peterson says that can’t
work.. but maybe if we ‘save the father from the bottom of the wale’ and keep
the ancient wisdom? I don’t know.
If we don’t
include the next generations in that meaning.. if we don't start thinking about
the ripple effects through history, that our actions create.. then where else
do we expect to find that meaning?
We don't
even need to have our own kids to affect the next generations. Fox sisters’
effects didn't come from child bearing. The thought I'm struggling to
communicate is basically.. even if Spirituality used a fraud as the ‘rock that
started it's ripples,’ still if you hug a Tree it does make you feel better. In
a way people need to start looking for the synchronicity to start flowing.
25/07/2020
9:10am
Good morning.
I fell asleep yesterday.. again.
10:21am
OK.. thank
you for bearing with me. My life and my neurodiversity carry many interruptions
and I am not so sure that I make so much sense with these disturbings. Maybe
solving the existential terror problem can’t just happen in a diary entry that
is done in a hurry, in the middle of a chaotic day. Right in there though, in
these days of Chaos, of Dragons and hidden treasures.. it is in these days that
Myths and Legends are born. And my first novel is been cooking up for years now;
my Spiritual legend. A ripple effect that stated from a fraud, gave birth to Carl
Jung, gave a name to archetypes.. opened up ppl*’s eyes in synchronicity,
opened scientist’s eyes to quantum physics, had an alien and a medieval
alchemist meet in the 1980s, and gave birth to me and my novel, for a bet
between gods. (My novels plot.)
Yet this
book has to w8.** My studies and the kids do come first atm.*** It just so hard
to have a story overflow me.. and no time or concentration to give it a form. And
it is so annoying to know that you, my dear future historian, know already what
is going to happen in my life. (I am not really mad, I just tried to make a joke,
but as you see I better just go do some self-care.)
Note to
self: focus on the practical atm*** and remember to take care of yourself too.
*people
**wait
***at the
moment
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